Exactly.

I’m pretty banged up mentally about how I fit in with the music I listen to, writing about it, its people culture and the rest of you at this moment, rj. I might be taking everything too seriously today, but with April coming up, it feels like the one year anniversary since I had all my credibility taken away from me.

Indie and punk music culture is so weird. It’s supposed to be a haven for all the kids who didn’t fit in with the “cool” kids or the kids who just accepted whatever the media handed them, but I feel even more outside than that — Like, not even accepted by the sub-culture.

Been going off the rails more so with my relationship with music and writing these past few days — SXSW of course bringing that about.

Bah.

I’m currently restricted from interacting with Tom on Twitter I discovered this week, in the midst of keeping tabs of SXSW coverage. I don’t even follow the dude and never have. The extent of any interaction I’ve had with his Almighty was maybe a few tweets no different than how some of us criticize his traffic diving think pieces.

It’s so insanely infuriating how inflated these writers’ egos are.

There ought to be a Deconstruction of SXSW from the outsider’s perspective — Bands / writers who didn’t wind up in Austin because they couldn’t for one reason or another. People figuring out how to use the filter of their tweet feed for the first time ever because it’s suddenly taken on the self-important banality of a facebook news feed dominated by boring thoughts and photo uploads. Those in Austin currently thinks the world revolves around them. The world outside thinks nothing that’s happening in Austin is actually all that important, safe for a few YouTube video uploads of new songs being debuted or Foxygen having a meltdown.

Theduchessofthomyorke is back.

…I’ve decided to go back to this. I no longer want to fail balancing between being perceived as “just a music fan with a blog” by writers in spaces such as this and “someone who wants to write about music, and is more than just a casual listener” by the rest of you.

The time between when Amrit prodded this name to come out and reveal its identity as a DIY blogger and the present, in which I receive e-mails from Stereogum and Pitchfork writers politely criticizing me about what I am doing “wrong” and what they are doing “right” has been pretty miserable. I’ve surpassed having fun with my writing, but lack fulfillment because — well, because of what Cole says above about the surrounding sites’ characters (“Drunk corporate goons and other industry vampires and cocaine. Everyone is drunk, being cool.”) kind of bullying the ones beneath them.

Indie music writing is like the equivalent of high school, except the jocks and cheerleaders wear glasses, hardly work out and use bigger words.

Round up the conclave, because the _ has stepped down from his music papal pulpit in attempt to return to normalcy.

Whatever the intention, it’s sometimes nice to look back on our past lives and maybe see if there’s something from those days worth carrying on with.

(the photo didn’t link right: http://www.wayn.com/waynphotos.html?wci=photo&photo_key=6007843#pkey=6007843)

Stereogum le prohibió hace unas semanas, pero esta noticia no fue compartida públicamente por razones obvias.

You know what’s mean and unfair? Collectively beating down the same person week in and week out, for merely showing up and trying to move on. I think you’re underscored friend got sick of constantly being bullied down even when he attempted to remain cool, considering. No one gave the kid a second chance even when he did his best to start anew. RubberJohnny got treated better in the long run even for being an openly homophobic and racist troll. Not to mention Team Stereogum never cared that a human who had put some honest effort and time out of their life / free time into helping them was actually out there in the real world, kind of pissed that they had seriously squandered another really good opportunity for him that would have otherwise changed things for the better in his life.

There is no starting over on this end. This is what you’ve made of it, so come to terms with it.

Forget trying to sound interesting Yeasayer, and just pump out an album filled with pop singles like “O.N.E.” That’s the only thing you’re good at.

Hello again everyone. Your fellow underscored commenter is dead. You killed him. I am taking over from here on out, as there’s nothing left to do on here now but contribute to the mean-spirited culture that all of you insist on focusing on.

You think these people care what you have to say? You think that your opinion matters? It does not. You have such a tiny, tiny irrelevant voice that cannot make a sound or influence anyone’s thoughts at the end of the day. All of those hours spent blogging and writing on top of the input you deliver here… it’s just white noise. Come back to the dark side…

I told you these people would eventually turn against you, Michael_…