Back in 2013, former Nickelodeon shining star Amanda Bynes was going through a rough patch. Four years later, she seems to be doing a lot better — go Amanda! — and she recently gave her first interview in a long while on YouTube talk show Hollyscoop. During her time in the spotlight, she cultivated a compelling but trainwreck-y Twitter presence, the pinnacle of which was a pretty straightforward request towards Drake to “murder [her] vagina.” Drake even commented on the infamous tweet, and now Bynes is back and better than ever, ready to set the record straight.

“I actually wasn’t being insincere,” she says during the interview. “I was serious, but I was also on drugs. So that was my way of saying, like, ‘Let’s do it, man.’ But I was on drugs and trying to be hilarious.” When asked exactly what murdering one’s vagina entails, Bynes responded: “I don’t know… It just means, ‘Fuck me, Drake.'”

Here’s the interview — the Drake portion comes in around the 3-minute mark.