Cardi B took the witness stand to testify in her libel trial against YouTuber Tasha K today, TMZ reports. Cardi sued the popular celebrity gossip blogger in 2019 over a “malicious campaign” of posts claiming that Cardi contracted sexually transmitted diseases and abused drugs.

Cardi broke into tears during her emotional testimony on the fourth day of the trial, telling a federal jury in Georgia that she felt “extremely suicidal” and “helpless” over Tasha K’s alleged lies. “I felt defeated and depressed and I didn’t want to sleep with my husband,” she added.

The rapper said she experienced fatigue, anxiety, weight loss, and migraines due to the stress. “I felt like only a demon could do that shit,” she told the courtroom before apologizing for her language. The trial, which kicked off on Monday in Atlanta, is expected to run into next week.

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