A few weeks ago we heard the bizarre news that the vaguely Wu-Tang affiliated rapper (and half of the LA duo Northstar) Andre “Christ Bearer” Johnson was in critical condition after cutting off his penis and throwing himself out of a window. Adding insult to injury, Wu-Tang quickly distanced themselves from the rapper. Now Johnson has spoken to TMZ and explained his actions:

He says he was feeling super alone … unable to see his two daughters because of restraining orders and a third child on the way. C.B. tells us he started to smoke weed and read a book about monks and vasectomies. C.B. says it felt like his world was collapsing, and with the thoughts of kids and vasectomies in his head … he decided to take matters into his own hands. Clearly, it did not turn out well.

His member has been reattached and is fully functional. He also tells TMZ, “I am the fucking Wu-Tang.”